Original Date: 08/02/2024. Still applies today.
I’ve just had it. I’m overwhelmed and distraught and drained out. I don’t know how I will continue the rest of my life (my 2nd life) in this current state. I am exhausted just to exist here.
Patriarchy: (8/2/2024) Patriarchy: a social system that gives men more power and privilege than women in many areas of life. The term comes from the Greek word Patriarches, “rule of the father.” Lyrics of “The Man” by Tayler Swift: “I’m so sick of running as fast as I can, wondering if I’d get there quicker if I was a man. And I’m so sick of them coming at me again ’cause if I was a man then I’d be the man. I’d be the man.
Who are you? I am the strong man who can get away with bullshit, including gaslighting and mansplaining.
I actually made this card because I felt powerless in Aug. ’24. And it still applies today, a year and a half later. I don’t know what to do with my life. Right now, I’m just trying to recover from my second transplant, but I have no job or prospects. At times, I’m barely hanging on.
There is no life in this collage. That’s how I feel right now. The dark blue and red are sadness and anger. The bread represents stinginess. Everything else just represents men and the strengththey have. Even the man on the moon. The door in the corner is closed. The men in the stained glass are pious. I don’t know what I get from this collage other than it helped me with my anger and disappointment (then and now).
Addendum: 01/27/2026. After I made this post, my spouse recognized how he had acted was wrong and apologized, and also thanked me for making dinner. It was hard to stay angry after that. All I want is to be seen, respected, and supported. Is that so much?